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Friday, March 25th, 2005

Time:4:20 pm.
Mood: contemplative.
Wow it has been over a year since the last time i typed in this... i wonder if anyone even reads or uses it anymore.... i forgot all about this as im sure many others did... for those of you who may read this, im now 20, and living in NY city, attending the American Musical and Dramatic Academy, umm lets see... what has happened to me since feb of 2004.... my relationship of a year and nine months ended, this was very upseting but everything happens for a reason, and very good things have come because of it, I still have very few close friends but have a lot of people i can call friends which is a good change for me, i've met the most spectacular person in NY and they know who they are, i'm very happy with where i am in life, i love the people in it, and i really dont miss those who arent anymore, well.... i thought i would have more to write.... maybe something enlightening... but i guess not, but please feel free to leave something in my comments, i would like to know who are still alive, and who aren't.... it feels like im seeing something that no-one knew still existed... and there is a quiet lonely peace and tranquility about it... i kinda like it... Later everyone, Russ
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Sunday, February 29th, 2004

Time:1:12 pm.
Mood: nerdy.
went to bcc with aundre, HELLO..., saw branden, got hair dye, went to dunkin dougnuts, worked last night, was chucky, had fun, went to jens for like 2.5 minutes, went home, slept, woke up,got locked out of house, woke mitch up, got in, went back to sleep, woke up, went to pick up josh, found out after he didnt need a ride anymore, got mad, went home, had chocolate milk, watched infomercials with mitch, mom wont buy us a copper/blender/ice cream maker/coffee grinder, upset, got on computer, no one is here, they are on but away, must work tonight, first must buy new shoes, feet hurt now, then to brandens for the night..... bye russy
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Friday, February 27th, 2004

Time:9:30 pm.
Mood: loved.
Sorry to all for dumping you once again tonight, sorry...... and sorry.......... russ
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Time:1:10 pm.
Mood: depressed.
well im sitting at home.... doing nothing... i've gone out the last couple days with the Go Team gang, which was fun, i took Ryan home last night... but i felt like an ass because he was trying to make conversation with me and i didnt know what to say... so i just laughed, smiled and nodded a lot... i have trouble talking to people i really dont know... and i cant my tax things back today... very depressing, i worked all year long, with no periods of unemployment and for most of it was working two jobs at a time... yet im only getting $214 back and i have to PAY the state $81 that i dont have... why is it that it seems the harder i work the shitier my life gets..... i dunno, im getting ready to seriously give up, i have to do something soon..... well enough of that i dunno what is planned for the night but imsure i will see everyone. that should brighten things up..... bye..... russ
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Sunday, February 22nd, 2004

Time:12:06 pm.
Mood: groggy.
I had a lot of fun this weekend, with the go team gang..... pero... ti has left me very tired, i skipped church today and sleptuntil 10:30! ... yes thats sleeping in to me... after nicoles house danielle and i went to brandens meet for like 10 mins, then we kidnapped him, got chinese and went to danielle's house... it was fun then i went to work which was also fun... and thats all! i had a wird but cool dream last night however... i dont fell like explaining it so blah..... russy
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004

Time:10:36 pm.
Mood: happy.
heh, had fun at school today had acting class with the GO TEAM gang, the went to common hour where nicole steve and i did an african dance on stage.... i have now participated in two different ethnical (is that what i would say they were?) dances, the last being a chinese, japanese... or some kindof -ese dragon dance with val. i talked to Gatto, my h-school track coach. he said i could train w/ the track team as long as i help as like assistant coach which is pretty cool... kinda reminds me of a porn i once saw though... new young coach... young athletes... :) ...ahem... anyways, j/k bout that... i dont watch porn :) oh yeah and he said that they dont have th pentathlon, like i thought i was gonna do, so im gonna do the decathlon instead... yep 1 event made up of 10 indiviual events... im gonna die... but its gonna be fun.... a lot of hard work ahead of me... Lilah, if you ever read this i miss you so much and i wish we could hang out some more... lifes not the same with out you... and kendra... when are you gonna get your ass down here? j/k i love you hunny, hopefully ill come up to see you soon... well thats enough of that... laters love to all and to a a good night... dreaming about me :) MWAH! Russy
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Wednesday, February 18th, 2004

Time:9:16 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala...... yeah..... i cant wait until friday hopefully it will be fun... im gonna do the empire state games..... i worked out today it was fun.... i feel all buff and shit..... ~i get secrets at night but they dont stay i get secrets at night but they go away~ i think ~i almost love this town when i'm by your side~ well that is all laters
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Tuesday, February 17th, 2004

Subject:uhhhh..... people
Time:10:18 pm.
Mood: aggravated.
i thought i was gonna have a good day at school today.... but i was wrong, and i thought i was being grumpy lately, damn. And everytime i say or do something it just makes things worse, so im just gonna shut the hell up, smile and nod just as if i was back in high school. Let everyone bitch agree with them and you can move on with your sad life... work sucks, school sucks, and now im pissed
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Wednesday, February 4th, 2004

Subject:The sky looks beautiful...
Time:9:33 pm.
Mood: restless.
Well, i know how much you all het drama, but this entry is for my sake and not yours... so you DON'T have to read it if you dont, what follows this will be a serious of complaints, and a lot of whining... mmk... im writing this in hopes of being able to come to peace with myself, and with that being a better friend.
First, i feel like shit, im tired but cant sleep, im grumpy, and i hate my job.
Second, ive come to realize that im not who ive been making myself out to be, i am a sucky boyfriend, i have so much that many people dont have yet i dont appreciate it, im ungrateful, and i take it for granted... and all of those are pretty much the same thing so i dont know why i wasted my time typing them...
Third, i say and do things before i fully think them out and it always leads me to trouble.
Fourth, i flirt to much, bitch to much, and compliment to little.
Fifth, im getting sick of trying to please everyone else, when really i want to be myself, and just sit down and enjoy everything that im blessed with
Sixth, well this really isnt a personal fault but, i dont want anyone thinking that these feelings are because of them, these stresses are only present because of my thoughts, and actions. I love you all, and you have done nothing but brought joy, and comfort.
Seventh, i must learn that no matter how much i dont want to be responsible i must because everyone else is doing so and i should not be an exception.
Eighth, I must learn to respect my parents more and not be such an ass, they are looking out for me, not trying to ruin my life.
Ninth, i hate typing so this damn list is over.
Once again im sorry for the drama, and again no one is at fault for any of this but me. Thank you for your time, if your reading this i know you care and i love you for that... see im starting to feel better already, hopefully i'll be in a better mood tomorrow, and..... i cant think of anything else, thank you for caring, i love you more than you know and g'nite. Russ
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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004

Subject:SNOW!!!!!!!! can bite me!
Time:9:37 pm.
Mood: happy.
I hate snow so much... mainly because i have to shovel it and my car cant make it up the hill so it is at my aunts house and im here and somehow i need to get it out of her driveway tomorrow so i can go to school.... uhhh work was less shitty : ) today... but muy aburrido! i love my theater friends, i may not show it but im so thankful i met these people and there awesome group of friends, its what i was deperatley waiting and looking for... ... da da da da "...so happy together..." da da da well laters ~ russy
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Monday, February 2nd, 2004

Time:9:20 pm.
Mood: bitchy.
AHHHHH! today at work the wrestlers plugged the toilet and kept on flushing it until all the shit in it (literally) was all over the floor! and guess who had to clean it up!... yep... ANd i hope hey dont have a dealy tomorrow cuz i dont want to miss our acting class cuz i get to see all my wonderful friends!.... well i guess that is all! chow- russ
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Subject:Uhh... seriously
Time:3:21 pm.
Mood: annoyed.
I got home at two last night and was grounded upon entrance... i'm 18! can they ground me? ... hmm this is unfiar in so many ways that i dont feel like typing any of them... but it is... anyways i had fun last night, im glad i was able to escapr sarah's wrath... my mom is still going on about the whole late thing this minute AND my dad went out and bought a dry erase board so that we can write where we are going who with, their numbers what time we left and what time we returned... I'm going to abuse it so much that they will stop using it... but anyways like i said had fun last night and can't wait until tomorrow so i can see almost everyone! Russy
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Sunday, February 1st, 2004

Subject:I'm don't really care for football.....
Time:2:45 pm.
Mood: indifferent.
Hola, I'm am so tired but can't go to sleep for the fact that i don't want to prove my mom right. i went to bed at 4 and woke up at 9... end of that story... onto to other things, uhhh i havent drank in so long.... I'm sorry, i actually dont like getting drunk just because I don't want to be a burden for others... I hope i wasn't........ you know you have good friends when they will continue to stand by you even after you fall flat on your ass trying to get a strike... and i think i was going to say something else there.... BUT.... i forgot.... so.......... um... yeah, so how's everything? oh, well thats good.... OH!!! I got home last night and my mom was waiting up for me... not good... then my dad tried to have a conversation with me... not good... I stutter a lot more than i usually do when tipsy :) AND THEN this morning my mom caught me making fun of her behind her back... she yelled and threatened to make me go to my room... last time i checked i was 18... not 5.... hmm, but I got to know Danielle a lot better last night... the poor girl had to put up with me all night... but shit happens, lifes not fair... :) Ahhh, we got kicked out of the #5, quite impressive i must say... uhh i tire of typing so i'll talk to you all later. RUSSY
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Saturday, January 31st, 2004

Subject:lala.... la....
Time:3:11 pm.
Mood: indifferent.
well, hmm.... im close to finishing off a whole bag of munchos that jen gave me... by the way i had fun at the get together last night! Im sorry to all for acting so dorky i was really tired and that tends to happen... but... nothing, i actually dont know why im writing in this stupid thing.... im bored i guess... kendra i miss you and i promise i will try to see you soon... i have sarahs necklace...And she gave it to me i did not steal it... Aundre left in a hurry last night... he said he was tired, i hope we werent to annoying or something...grr laundry is done... bye all....... russy
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Thursday, January 29th, 2004

Subject:YAy! heh
Time:10:01 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
well umm, where do i start?... this is a happy entry... unlike the last one, i've made THE coolest friends these last couple of weeks!. Im so glad sarah jen and paul invited me to their table that first day of classes... i was so nervous when i first met them though.... but im not anymore! Oh joy! anyway... I had lunch with the ever lovely lilah today, we went out for chinese... and it was good... but you all know how slow i type so i will be going now! i miss you kendra! MWAH to all.... Russy
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Wednesday, December 3rd, 2003

Subject:Wow... im back
Time:2:53 pm.
Mood: lonely.
well its been awhile but best not let this thing die i may need it for some sort of emotional escape in the future or something i dont know... i just read three livejournals... Kendra's, Amanda's and Travis's... Kendra i love you your the greatest, Amanda I miss you, Travis i don't know... something... its so wierd reading back and seeing how different things are, its sad, anf=d my heart is aching, friendships that are no longer there, memories forgotten... i dunno, its so wird people always told me that once high school is over your friends will be gone and things will be totally different... of course my freinds and i denied the statement saying we will always be together and that that statement would never happen to us... well... where is everybody... I soend most my day by myself... nobody ever calls, ims are rare, emails even more so and if i do see someone the conversation is kept short and sweet becuase they have other people to see and different things to attend to... but i cant say that for everyone, kendra and i have managed to stay close and through her i've met new friends, that sadly, i think want more to do with me than my highschool friends, I've started hanging out with Dann again, we are working on some projects together, and then there is Branden who is always there for me(along w/ kendra)... its just wird do my other friends feel the same way or have they simply moved on to happier days... i dunno maybe im just whining but its just so hard to let these feelings and relationships go... maybe someday they will work out but... i dunno it doesnt look that good... do i look chinese in my new pic? ohwell its good to try new things i guess... talk to you all later.. well most likely not all, but good wishes and happiness to those who do read this! Russy
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Tuesday, April 1st, 2003

Time:5:48 pm.
You'll die from gorillas attacking you
You'll die from gorillas attacking you... you're
too normal so I figured an interesting death
would spice up your next life.

How are you going to die?
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Monday, March 31st, 2003

Subject:fun fun fun
Time:6:27 pm.
Mood: horny.
try lighting your hand on fire and then make out with ice cubes
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Wednesday, February 26th, 2003

Time:3:41 pm.
Mood: distressed.
your ideal mate is Gollum...?!

Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?
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Friday, February 21st, 2003

Time:7:45 pm.
Mood: angry.
Dream, the third of The Endless, you are in charge of the Dreaming, all imagination and creativity, everyone knows your beautiful realm, but none truly understand it. You are dark and%2
Dream, the third of The Endless, you are in charge
of the Dreaming, all imagination and
creativity, everyone knows your beautiful
realm, but none truly understand it. You are
dark and brooding, creative, and spend a lot of
time by yourself, just thinking. You are almost
as serious as Destiny, but not quite. Everyone
is enchanted by you, but you keep them all at a
distance, even when you shouldn't.

Which Endless are you?
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